Yesterday, I returned from this year's Fetish Con. I was only able to attend Saturday night through Sunday night (with an early am flight on Monday), but I'm so glad I did. It's funny that even after 5 years since my last Fetcon, it felt like no time had passed at all. I hadn't seen ANY of my fetish friends in 5 YEARS, which is so crazy to me to think about...but it seemed like I had just seen everyone yesterday. (Also, no one has aged in these past 5 years...at all...haha.)
It was my first time on a solo trip away from my son, who is about to turn 4, which is why I wasn't in attendance for the 2018 or 2019 Fetish Cons (and 2020 & 2021 were cancelled due to the "C" word). Last week I took the plunge to book my flight after being asked to attend due to the number of nominations I had received in the Fetish Awards. I was able to make it happen, but that's why I couldn't come in until Saturday night...and why I had to hurry home early Monday morning to come back to my son.
It was my first time on a solo trip away from my son, who is about to turn 4, which is why I wasn't in attendance for the 2018 or 2019 Fetish Cons (and 2020 & 2021 were cancelled due to the "C" word). Last week I took the plunge to book my flight after being asked to attend due to the number of nominations I had received in the Fetish Awards. I was able to make it happen, but that's why I couldn't come in until Saturday night...and why I had to hurry home early Monday morning to come back to my son.
Although I was excited, I was also so anxious to leave my son, who has some health conditions. And anxious to fly after 5 years of being a complete recluse. And anxious to be back in a large social setting (again, after essentially being entirely by myself outside of my husband and son these past few years). And anxious about having to give any acceptance speeches on stage (because I have a big fear of public speaking...which might seem odd considering how comfortable I am in front of a camera, but alas...) So needless to say, anxiety was running high when I got on my flight Saturday. And whether these nerves or dehydration or the pressure of flight is responsible, I developed a bad headache after takeoff...which ended up making me feel nauseated as well.
But after I checked into the hotel with my bestie in tow (who excitedly bought a plane ticket when I told her I was going), we got some provisions (mostly lots of water in an attempt to drown my headache away) and got dressed up for the Speakeasy event my friend Anastasia was hosting in the bar. [Posed beside her in the photo above; with my BFF in this photo below.]
But after I checked into the hotel with my bestie in tow (who excitedly bought a plane ticket when I told her I was going), we got some provisions (mostly lots of water in an attempt to drown my headache away) and got dressed up for the Speakeasy event my friend Anastasia was hosting in the bar. [Posed beside her in the photo above; with my BFF in this photo below.]
Right off the elevator I ran into some of my oldest fetish friends, and immediately my social anxiety melted away. So, thank you Nyxon and Jason Ninja for making me feel like no time had passed at all since we last saw each other.
In fact, that seemed to be a running trend I noticed there. It felt like no time had passed at all. Everyone is so warm and welcoming and makes you feel like family. I had been so worried that with so much time since my last appearance (and only filming myself solo for the last 5 years) I would feel like an outsider among this community of colleagues who film together, but I didn't. I felt right at home. And that's the fabulous thing about Fetish Con: it's a community, a family, a home for anyone with kinks they don't feel comfortable sharing in their everyday lives. At Fetish Con, everyone is accepted. It's "Home, Kinky, Home".
In fact, that seemed to be a running trend I noticed there. It felt like no time had passed at all. Everyone is so warm and welcoming and makes you feel like family. I had been so worried that with so much time since my last appearance (and only filming myself solo for the last 5 years) I would feel like an outsider among this community of colleagues who film together, but I didn't. I felt right at home. And that's the fabulous thing about Fetish Con: it's a community, a family, a home for anyone with kinks they don't feel comfortable sharing in their everyday lives. At Fetish Con, everyone is accepted. It's "Home, Kinky, Home".
And this year was especially special because it was their 20th Anniversary. So, I'm glad I was able to make it, even if for just a short trip. I just wish I didn't have that dang headache so I could have mingled longer at the Pool Party Saturday night, but I was feeling so nauseous and dizzy by 10:30 that I called it a night.
I did get to meet friends old and new prior to that though. And even as an introvert, having that fetishy warmth poured upon me filled me up in places I didn't know needed filling. So, thank you to my friends old and new,
I did get to meet friends old and new prior to that though. And even as an introvert, having that fetishy warmth poured upon me filled me up in places I didn't know needed filling. So, thank you to my friends old and new,
On Sunday I woke headache-free! Yay! I stopped by the vendors to take a look around, and then went to the Clips4Sale booth to do an interview with legendary Jean Bardot for her YouTube channel: The Jean Bardot Show. Keep a look out for that whenever it drops! It was a fun one!
I also got to check out Clips4sale's new logo on all the merch...and oh my goodness did they have some amazing merch! Serious props to whoever was in charge of that. The paddles and bondage sweatshirt are top notch. I'm going to get a video of it to share with you all.
I also got to check out Clips4sale's new logo on all the merch...and oh my goodness did they have some amazing merch! Serious props to whoever was in charge of that. The paddles and bondage sweatshirt are top notch. I'm going to get a video of it to share with you all.
And then I got some food and got myself ready for the Fetish Awards.
I had to rush ship this dress to get it in time for the awards, but I'm happy I did! (For anyone interested, I got this dress as well as the one I wore to the Speakeasy event from Fashion Nova.)
I had to rush ship this dress to get it in time for the awards, but I'm happy I did! (For anyone interested, I got this dress as well as the one I wore to the Speakeasy event from Fashion Nova.)
And as for the show itself...
It was an absolute honor to be on stage with the 3 gorgeous hosts: Anastasia Pierce, Kendra James, and Lauren Phillips....and to have won all 7 of the awards I was nominated for. It really blew me away. (Though...having to make 7 speeches when you have major anxiety about public speaking is...um...hard...haha.)
It was an absolute honor to be on stage with the 3 gorgeous hosts: Anastasia Pierce, Kendra James, and Lauren Phillips....and to have won all 7 of the awards I was nominated for. It really blew me away. (Though...having to make 7 speeches when you have major anxiety about public speaking is...um...hard...haha.)
I seriously am so blown away by the support of my amazing friends and fans. I really wasn't expecting to win all 7 when I saw the nomination list. I was just hoping to win a couple, so I asked my friends and fans to vote for me for all 7 in hopes that it would increase my odds of winning something...and holy moly, did you guys deliver. Because of your FREAKING AMAZING SUPPORT, I won ALL SEVEN! I really couldn't have done it without you, so thank you!
Though I was not expecting that, it made me feel really good to know how amazingly supportive my fans are. YOU GUYS ARE EVERYTHING. I could NOT do the work I do if it weren't for you.
Because of YOU, my lovely fans, I won:
Special Recognition Within the Fetish Industry - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Short Film - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Producer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Short Film - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Producer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Performer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Female Fetish Performer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Because of YOU, my lovely fans, I won:
Special Recognition Within the Fetish Industry - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Short Film - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Producer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Short Film - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Producer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Fetish Superheroine Performer - 2022 Fetish Awards
Favorite Female Fetish Performer - 2022 Fetish Awards
This meant more to me than you know. And if you were in the audience when I shared my final acceptance speech, you know why. But if you weren't there, I will reveal what I said in an upcoming blog post, because this one will be way too long otherwise.
Just know that your support means so much to me. I put my whole heart and soul into my work as a one-woman-fetish-production-company, so it means the world to know my work is loved and appreciated by so many.
Thank you to my husband, who has been supportive of my endeavors and trusted me to take the chances I have for the sake of my business. Thank you to Fetish Con for having me, and to the amazing staff who puts it together each year. Thank you to the Fetish Awards for making my hard work feel seen. Thank you to Clips4Sale for giving niche fetish videos a platform so that one-woman-companies like myself can earn a living creating fetish films. And thank you to my friends and fans who have supported me and my work over the years. I am nothing without YOU. Thank you.
Sincerely and with all my heart,
Ludella Hahn
Just know that your support means so much to me. I put my whole heart and soul into my work as a one-woman-fetish-production-company, so it means the world to know my work is loved and appreciated by so many.
Thank you to my husband, who has been supportive of my endeavors and trusted me to take the chances I have for the sake of my business. Thank you to Fetish Con for having me, and to the amazing staff who puts it together each year. Thank you to the Fetish Awards for making my hard work feel seen. Thank you to Clips4Sale for giving niche fetish videos a platform so that one-woman-companies like myself can earn a living creating fetish films. And thank you to my friends and fans who have supported me and my work over the years. I am nothing without YOU. Thank you.
Sincerely and with all my heart,
Ludella Hahn
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